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Thers is a Monster inside and wields temendous force and power. But we think the Monster is outside and go after it. But the monster knows that you cannot achieve all that it is compelling you to do. So what happens when you are not  able to do what was "shown" by the Monster to you and after it gets you going. Great misery, unhappiness, emptiness, soul searching and a whole lot of wondering about your own supposed shorcomings. But you see now the Monster has brought you to where it wanted you. Your own unhappiness and isolationa and moodiness. The Monster is always demanding higher and higher and unknown goals for you and shows you the attractiveness of many things and making you go after the goals and then the corresonding unhappiness and misery that goes with it. It never even occurs to you to retaliate and gain control of it.

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